Reality Catches Up.

Practice, dedication, hard work.  These are all good things in life, and especially in darts. 
They will take you places, potentially miles and miles from where you were when you first picked up a dart.
There is, as I am starting to see now, a limit.  You may go beyond your wildest expectations, but you can not go beyond your talent.  
Now this is not to discourage people from trying, because even for those without obvious aptitude, you can't really know what the limits of your talent are until you put the time in. 

For me, working at and practicing darts is a habit for me, and to tell the truth I wouldn't want to slip back to being any worse than I am now, but I am starting to realize that there is nothing remotely special or transcendent waiting for me in my darting life.  
As with anyone, I have flashes where it all falls into place, and the darts fly beautifully, but recently a darting friend asked me when I might reach a certain darting milestone.  The answer at first was that it was very far off, because I wasn't good enough 'yet' but then, upon reflection became never, as I am simply just not good enough.
This is disappointing, but I accept it.  I may not be a very good dart player, but I am still much better than when I started, and that is something.  My lack of ability also does not take away the work I have put in (and due to force of habit) will continue to put it.
It was fun to dream for a while, but now is the time to put away childish things...

Thank you all, as always for reading.  

-Dave Fox Sproull